May 2012
48 posts
not that anyone gives a fuck but...
… I’m going to the doctors this weekend to try and sort myself out. See if I’ve done any damage over the past three years, and whether I can sort that out too.
Starting my Monday morning with a big fat binge. So far none of this food has tasted good. Might eat an ice-cream to make the puking a little less harsh.
i feel so fat and ugly. i wish i was someone else, even if it meant never seeing my family or friends ever again.
i am so hideously insecure, it scares me. no matter how thin i get, i will be this way. it is my biggest flaw and i hide it well but i still feel it.
coffee
I love coffee so fucking much. It’s so much more than how good it tastes. It’s an excuse to sit down and relax or to go out and catch up with a friend. You can have it warm or cold, which makes it great all year round. It helps with hunger pains. It smellllllls soooo good… except on your breath when it turns stale (chewies help) AND it makes you poo, I like pooing, its...
“Sitting in your room for the first time.
With no Intentions but to get to know...”
– Perfection in human form
Today's Progress
Today I ate an apple and some chicken. I also got my assignment mark back- 99%. :) happy happy
Appetite Suppressants Update
Waste of money. They don’t suppress hunger. I have been eating less and found myself in a lot more control lately but I wouldn’t put that to the pills.
I just ate and threw up a sausage. lol, thats not in control but at least I stopped at the sausage. I’m home alone with a house full of binge foods…
10 things, not related to weight loss, that make...
Sex
My veggie garden
Staring at Mitchell when he drives
Cups of hot tea
Laughing with my sister about nothing
Drinking with friends
Snuggling in bed when its rainy
Singing and dancing
Dressing up
Finishing assignments
:) These are a few of the things that make me realize that I’m not completely consumed by my insecurities.
Appetite Suppressants
Been insanely hungry lately so tomorrow I’m going to buy some appetite suppressants. I swore never to go down the diet pill path, but I just can’t stop eating because I feel like I’m starving (even though I’m not.)
I haven’t heard many success stories, but I think I need to see for myself. I’ll let you know if they work.
P.S. I’m getting the most...
It's All In Your Head: 10 things never to say to... →
my-soulwhispers-memories:
1. But you eat!
Of course they do. They have to or they would die, very quickly. It doesn’t matter if you saw your friend eating a chocolate bar two weeks ago, or they eat something at lunch every day: they can still have a serious problem. They might calorie…
Eaten 2 sandwiches and im STILL hungry!
April 2012
82 posts
I’m going through a radiohead/talking heads phase and its great :)
